I wasn’t expecting any form of ‘textile art’ activity this week as my day job had taken me travelling to the US for the week. It was obviously not practical to take my studio with me so, at most, I expected to keep up with friends work and activities via Facebook. However just before I left I heard that those artists selected for Quilt National 2017 would be announced to the world on the Monday and that I would be able to, at last, tell everyone that my piece Ruins 7 was one of those selected. At my first attempt. And with an abstract piece.
I knew in September that I had been successful but had to keep it a secret. I did tell a couple of close friends but wasn’t able to do a public happy dance. This actually left me feeling a bit flat this week – the euphoria of that original moment was long gone by the time of the official announcement.
And then on Thursday I heard that ‘Happy today?’ had been selected for SAQA’s Layered Voices. Only 23 pieces were chosen from over 500 entrants. Which makes being selected really rather spectacular. I danced a very happy dance and announced it to the world via Facebook. Success like this is euphoric – it always gives me a burst of energy and makes me want to get into my studio and work even harder. (And yes it makes me unbearably smug for a few days). But this time I was thousands of miles away from my family and friends and from my studio. That energy had nowhere to go.
Which it turns out was almost bad thing, at least for me. Sat in a hotel room and then sat for 10 hours on a plane last night threatened to turn positive into negative. What if the great year I am having is a fluke? What if the new series I am starting work on just doesn’t come together? What if the next piece I submit to something is rejected? And the one after that? What if I walk into my studio and don’t know where to start?
Which is nonsense! OK success can be 9/10ths luck sometimes but I built my studio practice on one premise – just turn up and do the work. Not all attempts at a new series of work will progress. Not all submissions will be successful. Some days I will assess the previous weeks work and throw it in the bin. Some days I will start in the studio by emptying that bin and sweeping the floor. But I will be just where I am right now, in my studio and I will be working.